My desire to write something interesting and worthwhile is tempered with the reality that i am dealing with blisters, bursting, pouring toxic liquid allover my itching, burning body. Ah, yes, the joys of poisonous plants. Or in my case, dirt. Yep, my karma is that i don’t get a form of poison ivy from the tree. i get it from dirt.
i have been trying every form of everything recommended and no sooner than i clear it up in one spot then it bursts out in another.
As i sat here wondering if i was going to be able to post anything meaningful, i asked the poison to teach me beyond the physical. Because i know that nothing happens for a reason. No really nothing happens for a reason. Anyone who tells you otherwise is missing a crucial component. The reality is, everything happens. That’s it. Everything happens, and the reason is what we make of it. We are the ones that create the reason.
So the reality is i got a bumpy, boiling, bursting, itching rash. i get to choose a reason, so this time i asked it to teach me something. And what is showed me is that i (and most, if not all of us) have toxins hidden inside of us.
i did not get the poisonous rash from the plant itself. i got it from working with sacks of soil that somehow had the poison hidden in the soil.
i think about the life coaching i do with people. i LOVE the coaching experience. i truly LOVE it on so many levels!! And one of the most common areas we look at and work on, is the hidden places in ourselves that set us up for failure. Those hidden toxins that hide behind things we think are “fine.”
They are the toxins that keep popping up over and over until we uncover the source, the root, and work on healing from the ground, up and the inside, out.
Just like this poisonous rash that was hidden in sacks of soil, what toxins from our past lie hidden inside of ourselves, popping up over and over again–maybe wearing different maks–but basically being the same issue showing up over and over again?
So, as i sit here trying not to scratch myself into bloody oblivion, i am inviting in the wisdom to look into my life and see what toxins lie hidden from my first and immediate view, so that i might heal and transform them.
If i must deal with the physical hell of this itching, burning, rash, then the least i can do is get some good lessons from it.
May we all look with fierce love into the hidden parts of ourselves to uncover the toxins that lie there, not so we might judge, but rather heal and transform, so that the soil of our souls can become the healthy, fertile gardens we are meant and called to be.